Balancing or not?

I find it very difficult to find the right balance. The problem is of course, that balance is key. If we didn’t have balance, what would we have? There are so many different kinds of balance: there is a balanced diet, life-work balance, balancing your accounts, etc.

Compared to English, the Swedish language does not allow the same level of nuances or subtleties. For example, in Swedish we only have one word for expressing both safety and security (“säkerhet”), leaving us Swedes unable to distinguish the differences in meaning. Similarily, if we want to describe that an intervention addresses the desired problems (is effective) or that the intervention does not use an unnecessary amount of resources (is efficient), we Swedes have only one word to use for both these types of results (“effektivitet”).

There is however, one Swedish word that has no equivalence in English. This word is said to have its origin in the olden days, in the days of the Vikings. Our proud ancestors apparently liked efficiency and didn’t want to spend too long doing the washing up after their gluttonous feasts. Hence, they only had one goblet per household and it was of course essential that there was enough mead for every guest to be satisfied. The one goblet, probably the size of a very large pitcher, was filled to the brim with the Viking elixir of life and passed around the table. It was the strict responsibility of every man, regardless of the individual level of intoxication, to ensure that his sip, gulp, quaff or draught wasn’t so large that the man at the end of the table wouldn’t be able to properly quench his thirst. The goblet was to last around the whole table (“laget om”), meaning that each man had to drink just the right amount for him to balance his own needs while not making enemies further down the table, not too little and not too much. And the Swedish word “lagom” was born.

Lots can be said for the country of lagom, but in general we try to live as we teach. For me personally, the current challenge is finding the balance between living for today and planning for the future. I am more or less constantly struggling to strike the right balance between enjoying the moment that is here and now: smelling the flowers, enjoying a beautiful sunset or listening, really listening to my dear daughters happy chatter walking together from her school and thinking about the future: what will tomorrow be like? how many days/weeks/months/years of reasonably good health and autonomy do I have left? And of course I know that no-one really knows if they will be hit by a bus tomorrow or live to see their 100th birthday, but I think there is a difference between the uncertainty of not knowing about your future and actually knowing that you have a degenerative disease that will accelerate the degradation of time…

Finding the balance is not easy, but I am convinced it is worth the effort. Time to do my balancing exercises, both physically and mentally, prioritizing and redistributing.

Today is my day of lagom.

Seminarium om patientmakt i Almedalen 4 juli 2012

Jag hade nöjet att få vara med och diskutera Patientmakt under ett seminarium med presentationer och paneldiskussion i Almedalen arrangerat av Vinnvård. Vinnvård är en forskningsstiftelse som stöder forskning som försöker besvara frågan “Hur kan vi leverera högkvalitativ vård och omsorg vid varje tillfälle, i alla situationer och på effektivaste sätt?”

Johan Assarsson presenterade det pågående arbetet med Patientmaktsutredningen, som han ansvarar för, se film här.

Martin Rejler presenterade sitt arbete och forskning kring att stärka patienternas inflytande genom att förändra ronden, se film här.

Jag fick möjlighet att presentera mina erfarenheter och tankar kring patientmakt, se film nedan.

Därefter följde paneldiskussion där även Vinnvårds programchef Staffan Arvidsson samt politikerna Helene Öberg (mp) och Stig Nyman (kd) deltog, se filmer nedan (diskussionen börjar ca 9:30 in i film nr 1 och fortsätter i film 2).


Always a patient?

The first week of July every year is a very special week on the magical island of Gotland, off the east coast of Sweden. This is the week when the already extremely popular capital of the island, Visby, becomes even more over-crowded, when a very large number of politicians, policymakers, lobbyists, journalists and even one or two ordinary people gather here for the annual “Almedalen week” (Elm Valley) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Almedalen_Week.

I have been invited here to speak at a few different events in my capacity of being an informed (and opinionated?) patient, and look forward to engaging in discussions on “How patient-centered is Swedish healthcare in an international perspective?”, “Does increased patient empowerment lead to better healthcare at lower cost?” and other similar questions.

I had a comment from a friend, making me contemplate my role as a “patient”…
Am I OK with being labelled “patient”?
Do I see myself as a “patient”?

Hmmmm…..

My conclusion is that I am perfectly fine with being seen as a “patient” in certain contexts, as long as I am not seen as “nothing but a patient” or even worse “only a patient”. I can accept that in a healthcare context, I am automatically given the label “patient”, in the same way as I am automatically labelled “Frida’s mother” among my daughter’s friends. In fact, let me share a secret: in healthcare, I label myself “patient” to make the healthcare professionals feel comfortable.

But no matter what, I will always be more impatient than patient!

“From Ideas to Health” – presentation from KI on 30th of May

On the 30th of May, my main PhD supervisor, professor Staffan Lindblad and I gave a joint presentation at the 10 year anniversary conference of Medical Management Center at Karolinska Institutet, Stockholm, Sweden. The title was “From Ideas to Health” and the presentation can be seen below (part 1 is first Staffan and then me, in part 2 Staffan continues). The slides from my part of the presentation can be seen separately below the first film.





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Learning through observations

When I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s at the age of 32, I was of course devastated. I had a nine-months-old baby at home and they tell me I have an incurable, neurodegenerative disease…?

I felt like I was inside a black hole and thought I would never smile again. However, with a baby in the house, the smiles came back and I started to live again. Slowly but steadily, I was able to understand more about this strange disease and even more importantly, I was able to understand the features of my own particular flavour of Parkinson’s.
Because, as we all know, Parkinson’s is highly individual in nature and my specific combination of symptoms are probably more or less unique to me.

What I found was that by more consciously observing myself and my symptoms and especially the effects my medication had on me, the more I learned about the variations and patterns of my disease. And the more I knew about the variations and patterns of my disease, the more I could understand what made the symptoms worse, what made them less troublesome and how to get through difficult periods when nothing seemed to work.

Almost 10 years have passed since my diagnosis and every day holds challenges due to the disease (and of course also challenges completely unrelated to the disease). Nevertheless, I truly believe that I am in better shape than I have ever been, both physically and psychologically. And maybe it is all self-deception, but who cares as long as it works :-) . I make an effort to see good things in what I experience every day and I am very happy to be able to do all the things I do and all the fantastic people I meet. Of course, not every day is great and of course there are people I wish I had the time to meet more often than I do, but that is no different from most everybody else.

The more I learn and acknowledge my own personal challenges, the more I can take them into account when doing my best to navigate the interesting ocean of life.

 

What is the outcome of healthcare?

As a person living with a chronic disease, I am very grateful to healthcare. I would not be able to live my life like I want to and like I do, if it wasn’t for healthcare. I am completely dependent of my medications, in fact if it wasn’t for my white, red and pink pills, I wouldn’t be able to move around… at all… Without my rigid medication regimen, (6 different prescription drugs, 6 times a day, in 6 different combinations and with 6 different time intervals…), I would most likely be bedridden and very probably catch some unpleasant problem that comes with a sedentary lifestyle, like thrombosis or pneumonia.

I am lucky enough to have found a neurologist who both believes in and practices Shared Decision Making and this has probably accelerated my path towards becoming an extremely active patient. And for me, to participate as much as possible in decisions about my health, makes me feel more in control, even on bad days, because most of the time I know why I am having a bad day (lack of sleep, too much stress, not enough exercise, take your pick…). And to me this is the outcome of good healthcare, and I also want to claim that this outcome is equal with health.

To me health is an individual state of mind where I most of the time successfully put myself and my current situation into a context of wellbeing.

… and how can you measure that…?

Health is about responsibility

Health is about responsibility. I am not sure of the situation in other countries, but in Sweden I get the feeling that people in general have given up their responsibility for their personal health. They expect someone else to be liable if their health fails them.

Of course, there might be more or less reasonable explanations for this and the Swedish well-known high taxes does give us citizens a lot of valuable benefits. Our schools are completely free of charge, including higher education like universities. In fact, the government actually gives university students an allowance of around 1,000 USD (7000 SEK) per month to support higher education.

When it comes to healthcare in Sweden, we are fortunate to have a reasonably good access to high quality healthcare at a very low cost. Swedish citizens pay no more than about 130 USD (900 SEK) per year for primary and secondary healthcare and for tertiary care the fee is not very high either. For prescription medication, an individual pays no more than 260 USD (1800 SEK) per year, regardless of the price of the drug. The balance up to the actual cost for the care and medications is covered by the social security system.

I have absolutely no reason to complain, this system really benefits me personally, since I take medication at an actual cost of approx 15 USD (100 SEK) per day or over 5000 USD per year. Of course, to me personally, this system is a life-saver, since I would be more or less completely unable to move without my medication. But I definitely think that this system also gives Sweden a reasonable ROI, since this investment actually enables me to work and contribute actively to society as well as reduces my use of other healthcare resources.

Naturally, this system also has downsides. In my opinion, a healthcare system where the individual pays practically next to nothing of the actual cost for care directly, makes people a bit spoilt. Services that are free of charge are not really valued in Sweden. But this is to me a very light burden to bear, since it provides us Swedes with an usually equitable healthcare system.

The other major problem I see with the “Swedish model”, where the government basically has taken a very large responsibility for its citizens, is exactly that; responsibility. In my opinion, most people in Sweden have actually, more or less consciously, given up the responsibility for their own health and expects someone else to take it for them. To me, health is about responsibility, responsibility for your body, responsibility for your wellbeing, responsibility for your life. I am not saying that I have the responsibility to heal myself, but I definitely have the responsibility for acquiring the necessary knowledge for my own health issues and manage them accordingly. To me, health is about being responsible for knowing when I can manage a health issue myself and when I need professional help.

I have the responsibility to take care of myself, because no-one else can be expected to and that is the way it should be. I am fully aware of my responsibility, but that doesn’t mean that I can always manage by myself. I need help, but it is my responsibility to seek it when I need it. And in my opinion, healthcare has the responsibility to meet my needs. But not necessarily in full.

There has to be a balance between 1) my expectations or hopes for improvements in my personal health, 2) what is medically and technically feasible and 3) what is economically reasonable.

To me, this forms the basis for Shared Decision Making in healthcare.

Method description

To evaluate the effects of my medications, I use an app on my iPhone.
I don’t have the tremor that most people (including myself) associate with Parkinson’s, but instead I have bradykinesia (slowness of movement) and rigidity with a bit of balance and gait problems, just to make it more interesting.  
I did know that tapping tests are used to evaluate Parkinson’s clinically so I looked for a tapping test on my iPhone and found “FastFingers”. The app has a window divided in two halves and I think that you are supposed to alternate the tapping between the two halves, but I only use one side. I make sure that the lower part of my palm, thumb, ring finger and little finger are resting against the table, see photo, and tap with my middle finger as fast as I can for 30 seconds. I do this with my right and my left hand a number of times throughout the day and record the results (time and number of taps).

I started collecting baseline data a number of weeks ago and actually found it more difficult than expected to capture enough data in a day to be able to find meaningful patterns. I was able to record enough data for two days, 12th and 13th March, and the results are plotted below with number of taps in 30 seconds on the y-axis and the time for the test on the x-axis. I also included a control, a.k.a. hubby :-)

Very preliminary analysis after two days on new dose

Thank you Zalamanda and Marten, for your comments on my previous post. Of course, I agree with both of you, two days is far too short a time to expect any kind of significant results. Nevertheless, I did observe some potentially interesting findings in these two days.

The first graph shows the measurements i did on my very first day on the new dose. And the small change I did was that I now take my second dose of the day, a “type A” medication (see a previous post here) at 11 am instead of 11:30 am and have also added a “type C” medication, that hopefully will make this dose last longer and if I’m lucky, the dose will have effect until dose number 3 at 3 pm so I don’t have to take that earlier.

Interestingly enough, the measurements of the very first day on the new dose, indicates that the small shift in time for dose number 2 actually has an effect. Both my right and my left hand scores very high around 1 pm, pointing towards a distinct effect of the changed timing.

At first glance, the results from the second day (second graph) is less optimistic, there is no sign of the peak around 1 pm. However, the observant reader will notice that there are no measurements recorded between approximately 11 am and 3 pm (shame on me…), meaning that the function in my fingers might very well have peaked during that time without me having recorded it.

Mental note to self: Make sure to record frequently, especially between 11 am and 3 pm.